Day 41

Today's reading was absolutely beautiful from Psalms.

"¹ Oh, what joy for those
      whose disobedience is forgiven,
      whose sin is put out of sight!
 ² Yes, what joy for those
      whose record the LORD has cleared of guilt,
      whose lives are lived in complete honesty!
 ³ When I refused to confess my sin,
      my body wasted away,
      and I groaned all day long.
 ⁴ Day and night your hand of discipline was heavy on me.
      My strength evaporated like water in the summer heat.
                         Interlude

 ⁵ Finally, I confessed all my sins to you
      and stopped trying to hide my guilt.
   I said to myself, “I will confess my rebellion to the LORD.”
      And you forgave me! All my guilt is gone.
                         Interlude

 ⁶ Therefore, let all the godly pray to you while there is still time,
      that they may not drown in the floodwaters of judgment.
 ⁷ For you are my hiding place;
      you protect me from trouble.
      You surround me with songs of victory.
                         Interlude

 ⁸ The LORD says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life.
      I will advise you and watch over you.
 ⁹ Do not be like a senseless horse or mule
      that needs a bit and bridle to keep it under control.”
 ¹⁰ Many sorrows come to the wicked,
      but unfailing love surrounds those who trust the LORD.
 ¹¹ So rejoice in the LORD and be glad, all you who obey him!
      Shout for joy, all you whose hearts are pure!"

I just can't even put to words my feelings when I read that. I read it twice. I am definitely going to work on memorizing that scripture. I really have been struggling with feeling guilt everyday for things that I have done. Even miniscule things... Things that on the grand scheme of things don't really matter... But they matter to God. God looks at all sins equally. So whether I gossiped about someone or whether a man murdered his wife, God treats it all as sin and will deal with it accordingly.

I mean being a Christian is probably one of the hardest and most frustrating things. You work so hard to have the best life. You work everyday to be a servant... I kind of feel like a hypocrite of sorts sometimes. But God doesn't want us to lie to ourselves, he doesn't want us to feel guilty, he doesn't want us to feel weighed down by our sins. He doesn't want us to struggle in which path to go, because he relieves all of it!

We just have to open our hearts and let him. I know that I have difficulties in letting things go, but the great part about God is that once he forgives, he forgets. It's just a matter of letting ourselves forget as well, but also learn. If that makes any sense...

I really am so thankful to know God... I am so thankful that He is the Lord of my life, but I just really need to get with the program and stop being so guilty!!

Thank you Father!

God bless,
Lauren